Questions and Daydreams and What-Ifs and Remembering Intentionality

When in my life did I stop desiring to be extraordinary?
What makes us, when it comes to joining the adult world, become such adults? It is the tragedy of the human life: when we become so infatuated with getting on with life that we forget what we have loved, who it is we have always wanted to be, and where it is we daydreamed we would someday go. Why are we so concerned with pragmatism and so out of touch with beauty? When will we once again fall in love with rainbows, butterflies, and mud puddles? Why, pray tell, cannot children be children. And where, please explain, have all the children gone? Yes, it is necessary to be wise in this life, with health, with money, with time, with our words and actions, with plans and "reality." But it seems to me that as a child, I constantly looked forward to 'someday.' As a little girl, I dreamed of high school and sweet-sixteen. As a teenager, I dreamed of my driver's license. As a student, I dreamed of high school graduation and college. Now, as a young adult and a college student, I am remembering something I knew as a child. I knew that people go through life with a video-game mentality. We think, somehow, that we will get another shot at this deal. Once our little character runs out of lives, we get a "Game Over" screen and we can just try again next time until we reach the top level and finish the right way. We must, somewhere in the back of our minds (and for some, in the front of the thought process) have that idea. Otherwise, we would not act the way we do. If I have one lifetime here, and I work like a dog all the way through it...if I have one lifetime here, and I daydream my way through it...if I have one lifetime here, and I live a life of guess-work all the way to the end and hope I'm right...if I have one lifetime here....
It makes me think. It makes me want to live my life with a purpose, intentionally. Why do we have such a hard time remembering that? Why do I?
Well, I firmly believe that "it is appointed for man to die once, and after this comes judgment (Hebrews 9:27)." That being the case, when I remember the goodness of the Lord, His justice, His mercy, His holiness, His wrath, His love, I know that before Him, the One I love, I want to stand blameless, washed by His blood, having lived the life of love and obedience toward Him.

"Be diligent to present yourself approved to God as a workman who does not need to be ashamed, accurately handling the word of truth." - 2 Timothy 2:15

I will run to the fame of the Lord God, not my own, never my own.
-By His grace alone,
Katelyn