"MOVE, Katelyn." The voice of the Lord was unmistakable. I sat on the floor in the Prayer Room, a little shaken...'move?' Why? What? Where? How? What did the Lord want, in exact terms? Why, for the last month, had there been either a note or a Scripture in my mailbox? Why, when I would go to spend time in the Bible or in prayer, did the Lord only have one topic of conversation? He wanted me to "move" and obey, trusting Him to take care of everything. But this was a scary thing for me. It meant transition, uncertainty, and the probability that most of the people in my life would not be too happy with me. But there on the floor, the Lord called me out. No more hiding my face.
"Ok, Jesus, following You thing means I follow You, regardless of myself."
Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by your name; you are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned or scorched, nor will the flame kindle upon you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior...Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east [where they are dispersed] and gather you from the west. - Isaiah 43:1-5
This scripture continually ended up in my mailbox, whether scratched on a napkin or printed from a computer, it was there every day for a week. The Lord wanted me to pay attention.
Leaving the Prayer Room, I decided to drive around and pray some more after I met with Kerry, the woman who is discipling me. We prayed and I cried. Getting into my car, the Lord began to speak to me immediately about what He is doing in the earth and the part that He wants me to play through prayer. Among other life-altering things, He specifically said, "I am moving you to BHOP, Katelyn."
WHAT!!?? But I am a Mentor to six of the most amazing girls I have every met! Leave my girls? Really, Lord? My heart began wrestling with mixed emotions. However, I decided very quickly that, indeed, His ways are higher than my own. Thus, I asked the Lord to confirm this specific move in a way that would be impossible to ignore. That night, I had a dream, the details of which I won't go into. But the confirmation was there. The next day, the dream was confirmed through four different people who had no idea what was going on. The hand of the Lord moved me from step to step, leading me to join the House of Prayer here on the Bethany campus. Not only has He provided for my girls in the area of giving specific direction to their need for a mentor, but He has also provided a job for me, made the transition a thing of beauty, and is no giving clarification for the reasons behind this move! God is so good!
Even in the midst of confusion, sadness, tears, wrestling, and coming under submission to His will, I know I've been stretched and grown. I know my heart has been enlarged to trust Him more as He moves me forward, calling me to run ahead of Him and proclaim that HE IS COMING. Yes, Jesus is returning to the earth to rule and reign. And he has started shaping my heart in the reality of how He is moving. Not only is it my desire to see prayer and missions married into one movement, but it is heavy on my heart to see the church awakened to the Bridal Paradigm of her relationship to Jesus. And this adventure of becoming part of BHOP as an Intercessory Missionary is only a small piece of my story and how the Lord is directing my footsteps.
It's such a humbling thought. I cannot wrap my mind around why the God of creation would want me, a simple young woman from a small town in Texas, on His side to work for His glory. But He does. Can I just say WOW!......WOOOOOW!
I love to obey Jesus!
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