Soo Nervous!

Tonight I had my first opportunity to be an assistant prayer leader during a live prayer meeting/worship watch in the BHOP. I prayed out of Romans 6-8, that the student body on Bethany campus would be revived in the truth of the Gospel, knowing that they are dead to sin and alive to God through Christ Jesus. I was nervous...quite nervous. Of course, I have prayed in public before, but never while on a microphone in a large meeting while interacting with the musicians and singers on stage. All this while just hearing from the Lord and truly asking from the depth of my heart for what He put on my heart to pray! However, just before I got up to lead, I felt such a peace as I have not felt in a long time. I knew, suddenly, that it was not for myself, nor for the people with me that I was leading; but I was standing before the Lord on behalf of the students whom I dearly love. I was asking the God I love for His love and His Spirit to be poured out on people I dearly love, that the awe and holy fear of God would grip them and that His kindness would draw them to himself, that they would desire one thing: to be in the presence of the King of Kings.

SO to sum up:

God I dearly love + people I dearly love + knowing He dearly loves me and them = complete peace, knowing I stand in line with His heart.

For He longs for our hearts to yearn for Him much more than I long for it. His love is greater than my own. Jesus desires life because He is THE Life. The Holy Spirit loves His job and does not need to be impressed by our human efforts before He hears our plea! God sent Jesus for a reason: so we would be with Him where He is and so that He would be glorified. indeed, dear ones, if God is for us, who and what may stand against us?! This is yet another example of something I have known my entire life and yet have recently put into practical reality. Oh Lord, thank you for Your patient mercy on this slow learner.

Grace and peace to you all through Christ Jesus,
Katelyn